Once Again Here

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Submitted by: Nancy

Last year on January 12 I had a surgical abortion at 12 weeks. I have been in and out of a relationship for 11 years with the guy who got me pregnant.

We have 2 kids already ages 8 & 10, but this time around when I found out I was pregnant, I knew I couldn’t have it. He hit me a couple of weeks before. He told me he never wanted to be with me and said many harsh words, so finding out that I was pregnant didn’t make me happy.

I was a teen mom and I’ve struggled to raise my kids — he has been little help. I can’t rely on him for big things for my kids so having another expense and baby just didn’t seem right. On top of that I’ve been in severe depression for sometime now and a baby would not help my mental health at all.

Fast forward to now a year after my abortion, I’m pregnant and I don’t know what to do. I didn’t plan of getting pregnant — I was careful. It still happened. Somehow I feel like god is telling me that I need to have this child, but I don’t have it in me to raise another baby. In these terrible times, and having to give up so much of my life for a baby anymore with the dad only giving minimum help. I just scheduled my abortion for tomorrow and I don’t know if I want to go through with this again. But I also know I don’t want to have another baby.

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One response to “Once Again Here”

  1. Molly

    Nancy, I hope you found some peace somehow with your decision. I had my abortion in March because I didn’t want to raise a 3rd child and start all over with an infant again. It’s hard work! I have a good husband but I still lack all the support I need raising children.

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