Submitted by: L
My worst fear happened. Last night I took misoprostol. I had taken mifepristone the day before, and even though I was feeling really uneasy about it, I felt it was already too late to back out.
I cried before and took the pills. A few hours later and I started bleeding. I was on and off between being okay and sad. I sat on the toilet for over 2 hours because my biggest fear was seeing the embryo (7.5 weeks). I eventually became too sore and got up. I soaked my pad in 10 mins and when I went to change it, there it was…. and I felt everything inside me shatter. I haven’t slept since. I can’t stop crying. I wasn’t able to talk to anyone about this, and have kept this decision to myself.
I feel so alone, and I can’t get the image of the baby out of my head. I don’t know how to face the future, or cope with any of this. I’m hoping to find solace on this website.