Submitted by: Adrienne
My husband and I found out we were pregnant a month after we got married. We had just come home from our honeymoon and I had been having lower abdominal pains that I finally gave into and said to myself “this is something.” I remember my first thought after finding out I was pregnant was “Could I get an abortion?” I felt so terrible that it was my first thought. I was really far along – I was 23 weeks and 6 days when they first told me. I didn’t know what to do. We had always talked about how we didn’t want kids, so it wasn’t something we planned on doing in our life together.
It’s been 5 months. I still feel so lost and yet so guilty for the decision we made. I had always thought I would have the baby if I accidentally got pregnant, so it’s been challenging to accept the idea that we really never know how we will act in a given situation. I haven’t been able to talk to anyone about it, and my husband and I decided to keep it with us, but it’s difficult to feel like you can’t reach out to people without being ostracized for a decision you made. It really just makes you feel alone.