I Miss You and Live in Regret

February 10, 2025

Note: The Exhale Pro-Voice After-Abortion Stories collection features people’s stories of their experiences and emotions, exactly as they have written them in. We do not edit these stories at all, and the content that follows this message is exactly as we received it. We know that people’s experiences are complex, and these stories reflect the many emotions they may be feeling after their abortions. From relief to grief, and everything in between, and all at the same time, we’re here for you.

October 1st 2024 was the worst day of my life. After that dreadful day no one tells you it’ll be agony, challenging and haunting. My life after an abortion has been truly challenging and difficult. I’m in agony screaming for help inside but I can’t seem to get it out.

I miss my baby so much and regret my abortion. I feel guilty. I can’t look at my family without feeling guilty. Abortion is not an easy thing, it is a big mental change.

My periods have been brutal and a constant reminder I’m not pregnant anymore and it makes me sad each time. I get more anxiety attacks. I cry every night wishing I had my baby back. I beat myself up every second.

I’m going to the gym and going to therapy but I always have my baby on my mind and so I’m writing this today to see if it helps because my guilt is eating me alive . I know I made a responsible decision but I still regret it and this hurts and this is truly haunting me every second of the way.

Submitted by: Rain

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