When I found out I was pregnant, I was with a friend. It was a surprise for sure. We joked about how I’m pregnant and how it was too early to have a baby. I told my boyfriend later that day, joked about it and told him not to worry. That I would “take care of this”. A few days later I took the first pill. Then I took the second when my boyfriend and I were in bed. He smiled and said he’ll be here through the whole thing and not to worry. Once the cramps came and the blood, that’s when I regretted everything. I realized I made this decision too early.
My sweet baby, I regret it so much. I never gave you a chance, I never gave you the chance of being part of a family. I never gave you the chance to feel warm and loved. I felt like I did the wrong thing. I talked to my boyfriend, and we both realized we both wanted to see you grow. But the decision I made. The decision I made too early, the decision I made without talking to him about it. I will carry that guilt forever. All because I was scared and thought I was all alone. But he was there, supportive of any choice I made. I’m sorry for never giving you a chance, I’m sorry I never thought about you and did all of this out of fear.
Submitted by: Anna