Submitted by: Korey
I was texting with Cecelia with Exhale today about what I did, and I told her I would write my story on here, or at last add my voice.
I am married, a mother to two daughters ages 7 and 4, and crazily enough I aborted what should have been my third child just yesterday.
My husband supported me on my decision, but that still didn’t make it any easier. We both knew that having a third child was going to be rough on all of us, and yet somehow in the end we felt like abortion was a good idea. I am not even sure who thought of abortion first. I don’t believe it was me, but it was something that over a few weeks felt like a good idea.
I didn’t agree 100% on abortion until week 10, but the problem that occurred next was that I couldn’t get an appointment until week 12. I was on the fence all the way to the end, but I got it done. The procedure was nearly painless, but I still cried before during and after. And I am still crying now, maybe not on the outside, but my inside is a mess right now.
I just want to add my voice on here. I know I aborted my third child, but I also know that this was the right choice. We will have a third child one day, but only when we are ready.
Carolyn says
I resonated so much with this. I have two boys 7 & 5. I had an early abortion back in April of this year for an unplanned pregnancy. As much as I felt at the time it was the right choice, it does haunt me and I think about it everyday. There is a void and emptiness I still feel from time to time. I wish I knew how to heal completely from this experience. I suppose with all wounds it takes time. Your ending thoughts are how I feel as well. We will have a third or at least I hope, but only when we are 100% ready.
C says
Korey, I connect to your experience. I am a mother of two. I discovered I was pregnant the day after my daughter turned 1 and my son was 4. I think the decision was right for us (we came to it in a similar way to what you’ve described) but I feel waves of “what could have been.” I also feel guilt and shame in waves. I don’t think this is ever easy….
Christina says
I relate my mother of three young children and I just had abortion and I feel so guilty and pain so deep down inside how could I? I don’t want to feel this way