Submitted by: Lisa

I’m a mother of 4. The oldest is 24 and the youngest is 8. Never would I have imagined I would be pregnant again at this stage of my life.

I’ve been in a relationship with my partner for 10 years. Although we live together, he’s not supportive in a way that I need him to be. Mentally, I could not raise another child by myself.

I recently had an abortion and it was the worst pain ever. I’ve beaten myself up so much over the pregnancy and abortion that while in recovery, the only thing I could think about was not being brave enough to endure the pain. I deserved it, right?

It’s only been two days after the procedure and the pregnancy symptoms are still present. Why does this feel like punishment? I feel like a huge disappointment. I mean, this is the irresponsible stuff that I preach to my older kids about.

I have to get through this. I’m giving myself time to feel the feels since this happened so quickly. If I’m not mentally feeling better soon, I must find local resources to help with coping.