Submitted by: Kaylan

May 21, 2020, my life changed. I gave up a baby I knew I wanted, and it broke me.

I still think about my baby I gave up. I always wonder “what if”, but since I had my abortion I started to see yellow butterflies. I know a lot may not know what that means, I didn’t either until I looked it up, but it means hope and guidance. There is another meaning as well — it is said to be a soul at peace, when flying near the departed. I know it may sound crazy but I smile now every time I see a yellow butterfly, which is everyday all day. I believe I don’t have to hate myself, but grow and say I’m not a bad person, I am only human.