Mi historia


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Presentado por: Samantha

[English translation below]

Un 15 de Abril, estando en el baño del trabajo, descubrí que estaba embarazada. Tenía un atraso de una semana, pero por el estrés, y una medicación que estaba tomando (con la cual noté cambios en mi período), no le di importancia. En el momento que me enteré, sentí miedo, quedé paralizada, sólo recuerdo haber tenido la decisión ya tomada, no quería ser madre aún.

Nos tomamos unos días con mi pareja, antes de ir al hospital; tuve una consulta con una ginecóloga, y luego con una psicóloga, tenía que regresar a los días para hacerme una ecografía. Un par de días antes de esta ecografía, comencé a tener un leve sangrado; cuando llegó el dia, la ecografista me dijo que estaba en proceso de un aborto espontaneo. Fui con estos resultados a consulta con ginecóloga, recuerdo haberle dado el papel y ella dijo: esto esta mal, yo aquí no veo nada. Una prueba de embarazo positiva, y un retraso, no significa embarazo.Yo quedé anonadada, no entendía nada, me receto otra ecografía una semana después, y una prueba para saber qué cantidad de hormona hCG tenía en mi cuerpo.

Llega el dia de esta segunda ecografía, aún tenia un leve sangrado, la ecografista me dice que ahora si se ve el embrión, pero que el saco estaba por desprenderse, por lo que era inviable el embarazo. También me dice que hay dos sacos gestacionales en mi útero, y que tenía 5 semanas de embarazo.

Salí de esa sala, sin entender nada. Cómo podía una ginecóloga decirme que ella no veía nada y que quien me realizó la ecografía se había equivocado? Y luego resulta que había dos sacos, pero un embrión. Era increíble, la atención de algunos de los médicos de allí, dejó mucho que desear.

Ahora me preparaba para el proceso, un nuevo ginecólogo, me recetó las pastillas para el procedimiento. Lo hice en mi casa, me dijeron que debido a que el embarazo era inviable, seguramente la expulsión fuera rápida, y así fue. Debía tomar una pastilla el día viernes, y el resto el domingo, ese mismo domingo, antes de poder tomar la segunda dosis, sentía mojado, fui al baño, y lo expulsé. Aún debía tomar el resto, fue lo que hice, y al rato iniciaron las contracciones, con mucho sangrado y coágulos. Durante una hora el dolor fue terrible, luego fue disminuyendo.

Hoy a 13 días del proceso, tengo sentimientos [contradictorios]. Aún recuerdo la imagen con los dos sacos gestacionales en la pantalla del consultorio. Sé que fue la mejor decisión, no quería, ni podía ser madre ahora; pero me pregunto cómo hubiese sido si hubiese sido un embarazo normal, y hubiese decidido tener a mi hijo.

My History

Submitted by: Samantha

One April 15, in the bathroom at work, I discovered that I was pregnant. I was a week late but that hadn’t concerned me because of stress and a medicine I was taking (that I’d noticed caused changes in my period). When I realized [that I was pregnant] I was afraid, I was paralyzed, I only remember having already decided that I didn’t want to be a mother yet.

My partner and I took a few days before going to the hospital; I saw a gynecologist and then a psychologist, I had to come back in a few days for an ultrasound. A couple of days before the ultrasound I began to bleed lightly; when the day came the ultrasound technician told me that I was having a miscarriage. I went with these results to see the gynecologist, I remember having given her the paper and she said: “This is wrong, I don’t see anything here. A positive pregnancy test and a late period, doesn’t mean a pregnancy.”

I was stunned, I didn’t understand anything, she prescribed another ultrasound a week later, and a test to know what amount of hCG hormone I had in my body.

The day came for my second ultrasound, I was still bleeding lightly, the technician tells me that now the embryo is definitely visible but that the sac was becoming detached, so the pregnancy wasn’t viable. She also tells me that there are two gestational sacs in my uterus, and that I was 5 weeks pregnant.

I left that room without understanding anything. How could a gynecologist tell me that she didn’t see anything and that the person who did the ultrasound was wrong? And now it turns out that there were two sacs but one embryo. It was incredible; the care given by some of the doctors there left a lot to be desired.

Now I was getting ready for the process, a new gynecologist prescribed the pills for the procedure. I did it at home; they told me that because the pregnancy wasn’t viable the expulsion would surely be quick, and so it was. I was to take one pill Friday and the rest on Sunday, that same Sunday; before I could take the second dose I felt wet, went to the bathroom, and expelled it. I was still supposed to take the rest, that’s what I did, and in a while the contractions started, with a lot of blood and clots. For an hour the pain was terrible; then it diminished.

Today, 13 days into the process, I have conflicting feelings. I still remember the image with the two gestational sacs on the screen in the exam room. I know it was the best decision, I didn’t want and wasn’t able to be a mother now; but I ask myself how it would have been if it had been a normal pregnancy and I had decided to have my child.


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