This was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make in my life. From the moment I had the thought that maybe I was pregnant but dismissed it because there was just “no way I’m pregnant” to the moment I took that pregnancy test and saw those two lines indicating a...
After-Abortion Stories
Inhale and Exhale- Just Keep Breathing
To live in this society means that going through an abortion is a quiet and oftentimes isolating experience. In the aftermath of Roe V Wade being overturned it became not only scary to seek reproductive freedom but also taboo. I found that in the days leading up to my...
He Didn’t Even Ask Me If I Was Ok
I was 38, married to my long term partner, financially stable, a settled and mature adult and as I watched those lines appear I felt myself shut down. I knew my husband would not want this, and I also knew that after my childhood I could not live with myself if I...
Wave of Sadness & Anger – 9 Years Later
I was 22 and had just graduated college in May. My plan was to begin my first teaching job in August, but for now teaching half day summer school was next up. I met a boy one month before graduating that I really liked, we stayed together after graduating. His plan...
For A Dreamy Person, A Spiritual Person
I have had the hardest past few months of my life but also the most life changing. And somehow beautiful. But I killed the beautiful part. I was the person here to protect them the most. And now I just have whatever I have. What a position it is when you have to...
Did Everything Right, and It Still Didn’t Work
CW: Medical Description I’ve been searching far and wide for a story like mine after my abortion and can’t seem to find any. I had it all planned out, I wasn’t going to tell anyone outside of my inner circle and just pretend it didn’t happen. I don’t plan on having...
Initial Relief then Regret and Sadness
I am a mom of 2 boys, with my youngest going into kinder last year all the feelings came and I felt like I needed another child, a 3rd. I cried for months thinking about how much I wanted to have another child and my husband and I decided to try for one more, we tried...
The Closet
I wanted the closet. I wanted the small room in our house. A closet for me where my inner child could be healed. Where my makeup gets done and the trying on of clothes takes place infront of the big mirror. A place where girlhood at its finest shows....
Navigating the Trauma
CW: Stealthing A year or so after my divorce which was very painful so I wasn’t ready for anything super serious yet I was casually dating. I had met him a few times before and we had had sex with a condom once before. So I thought that would be the same when I...